Livin' life to the fullest.

I thought we could connect, but I was wrong..

Even though you’re no longer here with me, I still feel you here. I always have flashbacks on the things I wish I hadn’t said, and the things I wish I would have said. There is nothing I could possibly do to bring you back, but I know if I would have just done things differently you would still be here. That is what hurts the most - knowing the possibly. The regret and remorse runs deep, and it cuts like a sharp bladed knife against cold flesh. This, has changed everything about my perception on life. It has changed me in many ways; mentally and physically beyond recovery and explanation. It was my fault, and now I’m paying for it with the sensitivity of my mind.

There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about the times we’ve shared. A wonderful friend and a great person; who could light up a darkened room. I lost myself for a while, and you stood by me when things couldn’t have gotten any worse, and I took that for granted.. Now I’m even more lost. I’m struggling to maintain a balance for my yearning of existence and happiness. I’m okay to know I exist, but I can’t be happy because I lost a very important part of my soul. The depth of the eternal anguish I have to deal with is completely un-real. I’ve been stripped away from my everyday necessities; waking up, living, eating, and sleeping have been a goal not yet to be reached. 

This has made me question everything in life. I guess that’s what happens when a good part of you die’s right? Everything you thought should be gets lost in the storm of life, and the voices of joyful memories haunt you with the echoes of silence through the window of your mind. Your soul becomes a place so cold you fear to open because the rest of your body will become numb if exposed to the elements..

Yeah..that he used to be me.

I get so high just smellin trees~

I AM ON HAPPY WINNER!!!

I made this shit in one day :D